Nollaig

Yeah, I was in exactly your boat, so I know 100% how tough it is. It just sucked.

We went to this party when we got back from Europe and friends of mine were making jokes about my weight, and how I was going to eat various people at the party, in front of people I barely even knew. I started the diet and training the next week and whenever I felt like I might stop I just thought about how horrific I felt for the rest of that night.

You sound like an extremely strong person though, a lot stronger than I was/am, that is for sure. You can definately do it.